The following are comments taken from Jessica Darlin’s latest post on www.jessicadarlinxxx.com
Jessica Darlin posts: Being comfortable and healthy is my new goal. My cancer was a nasty little reminder of the lengths I went to in being a real porn star. I was getting fucked like a pro and had pride in being one. Before I made my weak comeback I tore sets apart with my sexual energy.
I left the business and hoped girls like me followed. I’ve never looked at another girl and wished I was young again. I’ve never hated my departure-I hated the way it happened. Bitch ass companies trying to get you to drop your rate. Trying to get you to work with people that fits their budget rather than getting the right people together. The fresh pussy was a PLUS! I don’t have a jealous bone in my body. My good friend was Kristi Myst. How could any woman who’s insecure stand next to a girl that beautiful? We were hell together and there will be 10 like us to follow.
I know it better than you. I replaced great contract girls and never questioned that some other girl would be the next great thing after me. I was nominated multiple times for performer of the year. I was nominated for best new starlet. Towards the end I came out from the Extreme cloud and was nominated for best unsung siren. Those were the days-The comeback just didn’t feel right. Fuck that-Having to check my ass for tears because some guy (Scott Nails) is gripping wasn’t what I signed up for. If I was going to physically take a beating from this business let it be from a cock that works! I have pity for the new girls that want to fuck in those cases. The phone never stopped ringing for me-I just stopped picking it up.
Don’t get me wrong I know the Ill will towards me in the past and the present. I wasn’t going to get the contract gigs that followed me throughout my whole career with the truth exposed. I look better now than when I was 18. I defiantly look better than when I was contracted to Elegant Angel. Pat cut my hair off in a successful attempt to make me look like a little Dutch boy. I had the horrid wig period. There was the in-between period and then the successful award winning final year. I wouldn’t have done that well without Jim Lane. He pushed me to AVN. AVN hated me from the Extreme days so it must’ve been a hell of a convincing speech that put those awards in my ass.
That’s right-I took enough cock that I now store my awards in there. When I decided to hang the cunt up it was because I found myself getting caught up in a lot of delayed drama. My scenes were unsatisfying because away from Rob and Tommy I was rude/crude and on my own! People don’t like the truth.
