Porn Valley- Wednesday morning I spoke to Eve Laurence, www.clubevelaurence.com, who's currently living in Maryland. Laurence talks about her future plans and mentions that she keeps in contact with Eva Angelina, Tory Lane and Harmony.
"Tory, Harmony and I are from the east coast and we're all Libras," says Laurence, laughing.
But for now it doesn't sound like Laurence is tipping the scales by coming back to California any time soon. And that's part of our conversation as well. I caught up with Laurence as she was making a deposit at her bank.
Laurence starts talking about "that boyfriend of mine," more than hinting that this has been the source of her malaise. In addition, Laurence tells me she's been going to college full time. She just finished a class, is starting another one and in August she's doing three or four more.
"I'm just trying to bang out all my required classes," says Laurence. "I'm not really sure what I want to do yet but maybe something like Modern Sexuality, Psychology or something like that. I'm not really sure yet. I like to write my journals- I like writing. There's so many things I like to do. I think the fact that I'm making an effort to educate myself is better than what everyone else is doing."
Laurence also mentions the fact that she's launched her website. "And that's doing pretty well," she says. Laurence makes a point to note that her last name is spelled with a "u."
"I guess when I did movies and stuff and people didn't know how to spell it, they just spelled it anyway," she says. As I spoke to her, Laurence has just got off the phone with a music producer.
"He's going to be working on a demo for me in the next two weeks," she says. "And then we're going to put some lyrics to it and be seeing what's going on." Beyond that Laurence is talking about getting a part time job.
"You never know- I might come back to the industry," she goes on to say. "I'm kind of torn right now with what I want to do, my boyfriend and stuff." I asked Laurence about the rumor that she and her boyfriend already split up. She says that was only a rumor.
"We never broke up- I just told him that I was going to start coming back out to California. You know how the rumor mill is. You can never be sure about what the Internet says."
I translate what Laurence is saying as that she won't be back any time soon. But she's taking a guess at two or three months.
"I'm going to shoot content for my website," she explains. "And when I do that I'm going to work for a few select companies." Like Defiance and Naughty America, she says.
"I'll contact the companies I want to shoot for or put something on my website to let people know that I'll be coming out there. If I do, I'll be representing myself. because I think I'm established now where if I plan my trip a month ahead of time I can talk to the companies I want to shoot for. I'll just have to do my work."
Laurence doesn't mind repping herself because she's never been afraid of hard work.
"If you really want anything and you want to be successful, you have to put in hard work," she feels. But, at the time, Laurence didn't feel she was meeting her full potential in the industry.
"I've always been kind of torn about what I really wanted to do," she philosophizes. "I have this GUY." Yet from the way she talks, Laurence is of the belief that something good's going to happen within the next six months.
"I want to do what I want to do and I'm tired of living for somebody else," she insists. "It's hard with your first love and things like that. "I've been through a lot with him and I'm really fucking tired. It's bad to be upset and cry all the time for being as young as I am. I have a world of opportunity ahead of me." Even now Laurence, 20, realizes she'll look back on all this and call herself an idiot.
"But things take money," she continues. "And I put myself in a situation where I'm dependent on some money and it's going to take a little while before I'm able to get back out on my own and get on my feet. I got to get myself out of it. I'm being forced to grow up! In looking back and looking at myself, I was a naive little girl."
"With big titties," I add.
"But since I've been doing my website and doing MySpace and stuff like that- I've been driving traffic to my site," says Laurence.
"It's just so amazing what a fan base I have and how many people I've affected by doing porn. It's just really amazing. I get e-mails all the time from people saying how wonderful I am and it's really great. It's nice to get some feedback. When you're shooting and you don't have that contact, you don't really know. You don't know if anyone likes you or if they enjoy your work. So it's kind of rewarding- it kind of makes all the bullshit you go through in the industry worthwhile. You don't realize that porn's so big and so many people watch it."
Laurence admits that during her last time out to California she was very stressed out over her boyfriend situation."It made me not enjoy it as much," she sighs. "Porn used to be fun."
"As long as you don't have to answer to somebody for it," I point out.
"Exactly," she says. "And that's the worst part. I hate our non-sexual liberal society. This is America. We're supposed to do what we want but you have to answer to everybody. I finally got to the point with my family where they are, we just love you, do what you want. They just want me to alleviate all the negative aspects of my life. I told my parents about my website and they're happy for me. They're, like, we hope you make a lot of money. My mom was the first woman in the fire dept. where I'm from and my parents are very independent."
The other thing perhaps holding Laurence back is the fact that she loves Maryland.
"I love California but I like the seasons in Maryland," she tells me. "With California, you think of weather like a personality. If you have sunshine all the time, it's going to make you have earthquakes. If you rain a little bit and relieve stress, you get along a little bit better."
But Laurence vows as soon as she gets enough money to have her own place, it's on.
"And I'm also going to start doing some modeling under my real name," she adds. "Like bikini modeling and stuff like that. I'm trying to stretch out in a bunch of different aspects. I've just been realizing that I've been cutting myself short." With her relationship as it was, Laurence was feeling that maybe she couldn't do all those things.
"Maybe I'm not as pretty as I thought I was," she says. "If you would just love me and accept me for who I am I would never want to leave. I wouldn't want to pack up my bags and leave. Relationships are fucking hard."
Yet Laurence is gratified to see that she's getting the positive response she has from people she went to high school with.
"They're, like, oh my God, we love you- I'm a fucking celebrity around here! They're saying I can't believe I e-mailed you and you e-mailed me back. I love my fans. You can do whatever you want, but to make yourself popular you've got to put yourself out there to the fan base. But I just think a lot of the girls don't have that drive."
Laurence is also proud of the fact that she's been in the gym and working out religiously.
"When it happens, everyone's going to be like holy shit- because if you've seen any of the pictures I shot this past trip, it was a total transformation from how I was before. A lot of it is not drinking; a lot of it is eating right. A lot of it is just being an adult. And damn it. It took a long time getting here.".
