Gen Padova, www.genpadova.com writes; www.xxxporntalk.com: All that was said at Cytherea's KSEX show basically just tells me that I was right a year or so ago when they tried to convince me they were not using recreational drugs. Not that I really care either way if they did or didn't. All I was doing was replying to a topic on the message board. It just boggled me they went out of their way to call me and clarify that. It's fine though.

I'm not around for sympathy, but people talk to me and against me with my views on recreational drugs as if I know nothing about them and its effects on people and how it tears people apart. So sharing my experience with my sister was showing people that I'm not this fricken chick in porn coming from a perfect goody family totally against drugs. I think we all experience it from many angles at some point in life.

And if I really wanted a bunch of attention from press then I'd make press releases about every step I take and every thing I do like a lot of people do. And you dont see me doing that. I never once advertised my website like most girls do. I dont need avn awards or nominations. My goal in this industry is not a piece of glass, metal or plastic, whatever it is.

Certainly for a while being in this industry I enjoyed everything I involved myself in. I didn't force myself to do anal cuz I needed the money, i tried it a handful of times and soon realized it wasn't for me for various reasons. You didn't see me force myself to do in desperate need of the green backs. You never saw me going to parties, networking trying to become a contract girl cuz I know better than to ever think Id have that actual potential.

If I really wanted to be famous for being a porn whore then I would have made different paths of approaching this industry like Cytherea did. Good for her. Whatever works. What I've always been concerned about is having my fun and going about life as far as I can and make something of myself other than just being some porn chick who fucks on film for money.

One may think there's respect and actual people in this industry that care for their co-workers n such but the bottomline is that its a huge pool of competition. There is no respect. Everyone worries about themselves. Its that kind of way. Most directors don't give a shit if a girl is fucking with a yeast infection, as long as her test says shes clean and can get through the scene without the other talent complaining or trying to stop the filming.

The only reason why Cytherea would assume that I I'm hungry for press is because Gene Ross and fellow others of Adultfyi.com copy and paste everything thats posted on this message board. If they didn't do that, then it wouldn't be amongst all the press sites. That goes for Luke Ford too.

The funny part of all this is everything that I've made claims about other people are in all basis of fact. Not personal attacks. But because people I guess, I'm assuming feel an amount of guilt for their past decision making take it as a personal attack and then return the gesture with something very irrational and truly a personal attack with no valid fact. But its fine either way, at least I know I'm not stooping to a level of personally throwing personal assumptions into peoples faces. I only state my opinions without getting personal and degrading another and stating factual information that well, has already been confirmed.

I react rather calmly with majority of my post unless I'm being silly but a lot of you people go too far, get so worked up and defensive so easily it makes me wonder what the hell is going on in your noggin to make you have to react this way. Is it guilt? What the hell is it? Offended by what I say? And why?

I do know that whether you promote yourself constnatly or lay low like I do, you'll always get shit talked. You can be totally honest and blunt like I tend to be or remain quiet on the sidelines like some girls, you still get shit talk and horrible criticism for just being you. You have one lousy movie out of dozens and suddenly you're awful to the viewers. It's a tough industry and well many women are still gonna do it. Beat me down all you want in any way you guys want to but you're not gonna get what you really want.

I'll contribute to this board as I wish. I'll continue to answer any questions that happen to come my way. I will engage in the many topics and conversations that take place at my own risk, so long as Tony Malice and Jeff Steward allows me to do so. And I will always continue to be open, honest and pridefully blunt about anything I talk about without shame. Whether there's negative or positive feedback given in return. Take it or leave it.

THanks

Padova adds another post: No they've never done anything to me. And I haven't done anything to them other than answer a question when it was asked and answered it truthfully. They even admitted everything to base my answer to the question that was asked l ong time ago is in fact actually true. So thats that.

They tried to hire me? When Brian and I were talking on the phone a year or so ago about this whole fiasco, basically when he was trying to justfy themselves they were clean. As if I really care either way. That's when he said he'd be soon shooting and will give me a call. If I do remember correctly he did call me one time, in which I was not available. It ended at that. He never called me another time or attempt to book me ahead of time for anything. Which is fine too. I understand people operate differently and hold no anger or anything for them never shooting me. It's all good.

I just hope he didn't say "all we did is try to hire her" to make it look like he made a huge effort in calling and calling and trying to book time and time again. Cuz thats not the case. In fact, kinda rediculous ifyou have to do that anyways. But was thankful for the initial offer to begin with. Thats about it.

Padova adds yet another post: GeeEeeeeeeee I wonder why he said "Weiss said there's been some suspicion that Padova's faking her cancer." Maybe because some immature bored child on this board mentioned it and he's repeating the words.

Not only that but you guys need to get over this. This is so stupid and rediculous. I've been in remission for over a year now and you assholes still manage to bring it up. Whats the point? Get over it. Just shut the fuck up. You're the ones that are making this crap go tothe presses not me. So if anyone is in dire need of attention is you assholes who keep bringing up my health history.

Any press release out ther ein the past talking about my health bouts were all written by t hose who heard about me from word of mouth. None of it were press releases written by me to get the word out. Either way I dont give a shit but when I couldnt work for months straight recovering in the past, of course I'm gonna be honest to those who try to book me and say I'll be out for a little while. And thats when the word gets out.

The only place you'll ever hear me talking about my previous health are in interviews when I'm asked the question or on this damn message board. The greatest part of all of this is a few of you people keep bringing up the past when I've moved on living life and trying to live it as healthy as possible. And yet you guys sit here and poke fun and laugh about women in the biz who die from car accidents or die from brain cancer. Its pretty fucked up. So what else do you want to complain about like a little bitch?